27th of Aug, 2015
I needed something to fill up my hole. I was slowly sinking into the void, maybe I should take something with me?
And I remembered of you. Now you were pretty much like me. Depressed, lost, empty. I should use that to my advantage.
And so I called out your name. I asked for hugs. I asked for more. Surprisingly, you accepted. I wanted a kiss, but, later when you offered it to me, I refused, because I want no emotional attachment (it was not like I know how to kiss either).
By then, I hadn’t decided how I would use you yet. Maybe, I could use you to satisfy my needs. When you are depressed and have no love to ease your pain, sexual things can replace it.
I know I shouldn’t though.
28th of Aug, 2015
I wanted to die. Nothing went my way. Excepted for my morning with you. I need a reason to continue my life.
Oh, I know.
You can be my reason. If you stay there for me, then I can live and do my roll. If you leave me, I would have a lesson, and I will know how to do things myself, that I shouldn’t trust anything at all. Both are good.
But deep down, I wanted you to stay.
29th of Aug, 2015
I felt horrible. Last night was a bad night. A bad night of a bad day. But instead of looking for you for comfort, I think we both need some space to breathe. My way of clingy love must had suffocated you. So today I will just send you a link to my post about you, and only that. Or maybe I won’t.
Tonight I will go out and have a little fun. If I want to pretend like I was normal, I should go out and get some training.
And if you want to talk to me, you will. And you did.
I will try to hold back the urge to bother you tonight.
30th of Aug, 2015
I feel like you didn’t want to help me anymore.
I feel like I’m insane.
Maybe I’ll get some more love from other people tomorrow.
I can’t sleep, I can’t cry.
31st of Aug, 2015
Today is nice. You told me not to forget to enjoy life. Thank you, really, that helped me out.
Now I remember the way I enjoy life. I get love from people, and prove to myself that I was love. That how I live.
And so, today is nice, because I finally remember how to live. Thank you.
You helped me remember my reason to live.
Things ends here. Thank you for all you have done. What can I do for you?